I realize I up left my online life to DIE AND ROT IN A FILTHY GUTTER CORNER ALL ALONE. *tears*

I'm working on it! NO; Seriously. 2008 came, and brought a load of fantastically awesome developments, I'm motivated like I haven't been in years, and I've been working in secret on all kinds of projects for the longest time now. Finally, things are getting into the area of "soon to be finished".

CheerZombie [dot] Net is being worked on, I've been homeless for the longest time now, it's got to be done. Meanwhile, I went and got my DeviantArt Account up and running:  here. I know, I know, I'm at least five years too old to participate in that kind of spazz, but whatever. It feels good to be out there, in the open again. I've uploaded some fashion as well as interfaces and general graphspazzart.

CheerZombie has a new "Back Soon" image: Ladies and Gentlemen, it's a Rocket Launch! Gives you a glimpse at the new layout. I'm hoping to get the "General Information" part of the site up until the end of the month, depending on how demanding my upcoming internship will be. There's going to be a lot of bigger subsections, one solely dedicated to my fashion/sewing stuff, one to the graphics/art crapponism. And, quite possibly, a GIANT EGO CORNER. What would CZ be without it??


In other news, I'll be in London for London Edge from February 1st to February 4th.



Ah, my self-esteem just came out of the basement. THE LIGHT! It's hurting my eyes! Trees are green?!!


Ok nevermind. Cheers!!!

Arhhhhh don't get me wrong, I'm all for the writer's cause, more power to you, thumbs up, etc etc... BUT I'M GOING COLD TURKEY just thinking about the massively shortened tv seasons this year!!! Five more episodes to come, at best!! Desperate Housewives just got good again, and Heroes is just about to turn a crappy start into a kick-ass mid-season. Now, this can be made up for, I'll just bring forward my annual x-files marathon, or maybe I'll invest in that Steven King marathon I had planned for some time.

But you know what there is no replacement for? Noooooooooooooooooooooooo Supernatural!!!!! Noooooo!! I cannot do without my winchester boys for more than a week! How will I survive without my two favourite texan boys (I KNOW, KANSAS; ACTORS!)?! And that perfect mix of shutguns, jensen ackles, shotguns, ghosts, gore, hotchicks and demons? AND THE CAR.  OH GOD NOOOOO, It's like you're about to eat the best pizza of all times, only to have the evil men snatch it away from you, leaving you with only anchovy and a greasy recipe for fruit punch. DEPRESSING

Dark times lie ahead, indeed.

FIRST SNOW OF THE YEAR! Yippieeeeh!!!
I call snowball fight, who's in!

This is so awesome.

While my only ship is Sirius/Remus (just to note that I just find this awesome in a fangirl way, but generally..), this is totally awesome. And it absolutely works. And did I say how great this is?? JK, you really, really, really kick ass. I feel the urge to physically applaud her now.
Awesome awesome awesome.

Anyone interested in a short trip to see Patrick Wolf in London mid-December?? I'm thinking three to four days. It's his last gig this season, tickets are (still) available, flights are cheap if you're early (I just checked) and you could do some Holiday shopping in the UK! Get your dad some chic british socks for Christmas, I'm sure he won't expect it!!

Alternately, anyone located in the UK want to hang out with me in case I'm going? SU I'M LOOKING AT YOU XD Ok just kidding, not intending to frighten anyone


Argh I need travel buddies!! It's always the same problem!!!

Just got back from my little trip, dead tired, watching Law and Order because it doesn't require any more attention than staring at walls. My god, what a dull yet strangely entertaining and somehow invincible tv series it is.

Anyway, anyway, some meme. Also, I really didn't know about that librarything website, but I'll totally get an account as soon as possible and start archiving my books tomorrow. No more buying things twice, or forgetting about books I've had and not read for longer than what you call decent.
That being said, MAN that list makes me miserable. All those fantastic books I haven't read yet! Ahhhhh!!!  By the way, I mostly just underlined the books that classify as priority to reads, or already own but haven't gotten to read yet (I spend almost as much on books as I do on clothes, and that means something. Unfortunately you can't buy time, so sometimes it takes so time to catch up on my new purchases, although I read fairly quickly). I'd like to read (or read into) the entire list, so imagine it all underlined. Also, some of my books I have several language versions of (for example, Les Miserables I own in English, French and German). I marked those with an asterisk, as well.


"These are the top 106 books most often marked as "unread" by librarything's users (as of today). As usual, bold what you have read, italicize those you started but couldn't finish, and strike through what you couldn't stand. Add an asterisk to those you've read more than once. Underline those on your to-read list."

( here.. )

OH GOD I AM SICK. In the literal way, too, at the moment. I've had to cancel work today and tomorrow. Not that I could do any work even if I wanted to (I've tried to do some drawing, sewing respectively but I was exhausted after just two minutes). I'm leaving to visit my Grandmother on Wednesday, so in order to get real sick and well within two days, I've canceled any other activities. One thing I just noticed though, is that, however extensive it may have become (I'm currently stocking up) my DVD collection is severely lacking in get-well movies. When sneezing, tired, and with a headache, all I really want to do is lie on my sofa and watch Disney movies. Only, I have NONE AT ALL. Sacrilege!! More than anything, I'd like to watch one of my all-time animated favorite movies, Brave Little Toaster. It has some reeeally scary scenes (no, seriously! the part with the compactor induced many, many nightmares when I was little). But it's got great characters and themes about bravery and you-can-do-it etc etc. It definitely played a role in me not being able to throw anything away. I don't think anyone can look at their mixer with the same eyes once they watched the movie.

Also, that same nightmare-ish compactor scene probably is responsible for me throwing a fit as well as crying hysterically when I my dad scrapped old blue Ford Escort MK4. I wouldn't speak to him for a couple of days, and I've kept its little logo plate. And I still think it's one of the best cars ever. I'd get either that or the equally awesome Taunus model anytime. I'm sorry, I just love pre 90's Ford. The only kind of car I'd ever want to drive.

Anway, other movies I like to watch when I'm sick (or feeling bad in general):

Land before time
The Last Unicorn
The AristoCats
Tri orisky pro Popelku


I <3 movies.



Everytime I see a tv report on the new Nolita campaign (the one with the 70 pounds person) I feel like eating a whole box of donuts. That's a whole new way to feel sick about something!

Finally, I got one of my holy grails! It's the gold/plastic-y VW orb pendant, yay! I don't like the ones she has in her current collection, they're much too cool and understated for me. I need something much more trashy and well... GOLD. Yay happiness!!



Also, the designs for the Lip Service Spring lines are up already, gahh I haven't even ordered half the stuff I wanted from the previous holiday collections! Anyway, I want almost everything from the Zip Service line, it looks fantastic. Also, the Teacher hit me with a ruler line looks great, want want want!

Off to watch Jackie Brown now and lie on my sofa and drink lots of tea.


PS: LOL

Ich bin ja nicht wirklich besonders politisch engagiert (jaja, Asche auf mein Haupt, Schande auch, Themawechsel!). Aber diese Pauli... als ob wir in Bayern nicht schon genug Witzfiguren hätten... *mit dem Transrapid davonsaus*

Clearly NOT using my LJ as frequently as intended to. Will make up with consequentially pointless and short ramble.
You know how normal people have mousearms? Ok, REALLY normal people probably get tennisarms, or wankpain, but that's not the point here. Well, I HAVE A SCROLLFINGER. Yes, indeed. My index finger aches and has become practically useless, all because I scroll too much. (Which is a nice addition to the callus around my middle finger I've had since the first time I picked up a pen)
I've been using my other fingers to use the mouse wheel, and am now up to scrolling with my pinky. Which is as ridiculous as it is impractical. Ah, to quote people smarter than me, "The Internet is a useful thing, but it has made none of us better people". And apparently not healthier, either!

OMG WTF IS THIS SHIT OMGOMGOMGOMG


I just spit a fountain of milk on my couch. AT THE SAME TIME I VOMITED IN MY MOUTH A LITTLE.
ALSO MY EYEBALLS MAY BE BLEEDING.

wtf wtf wtf!!! *shakes chequeredfelon frantically* WHAT IS THIS?! I shouldn't have passed your subtle warning ("Cinema Bizarre, die "erste deutsche Visual Kei Band" [...]") as something that I could easily ignore and instead prepared for impact.


AND THE NAME. MIGHT AS WELL HAVE THROWN FECES AT CINEMA STRANGE. Ah, BLASPHEMY
It doesn't help that I just saw the "new" "Nightwish" "video". AND ALL I WANTED WAS TO WATCH RIHANNA MAKE OUT WITH AN UMBRELLA. I HATE MUSIC TELEVISION.


I have developed some amount of tolerance towards modern popculture, and thought nothing could really take me by surprise. BUT LEAVE THAT TO the sheer insanity of the present German music industry. This is too much for me, old-fashioned and gridlocked as I am. TOKIO HOTEL IS AT LEAST FUNNY OK?? These people... it's just wrong. I'm not sure if aesthetic value can actually be violated, but it sure feels like it was.

AND NOW PLEASE EXCUSE ME I have some acoustic hygiene to do. In fact, I might actually have to listen to at least an hour of Bauhaus and The Cure. They shouldn't have to clean up other people's mess =( What measures I have to take to rid myself of the traces of such profanity. Seeing as it's also raining, and a Saturday, I might actually end up passed out on my sofa by force of melancholy but if THAT'S WHAT IT TAKES.



OH GOD NO AMOUNT OF CAPS CAN EXPRESS MY DISMAY also I think I even smell like indignation. It's sort of mint-y with a hint of anise.

Ok, today was a quiet indulgence day. I need that sometimes. And with "sometimes" I mean "every day". Mind, this is going to be an equally content/IQ free entry. Not like that's news, but just pointing it out with extra topping.

I accidentally woke up at half past eight, which is completely middle-of-the-night and not acceptable from any point-of-bohemian-view. So with all mighty force I put myself back to sleep, and got up a decent couple of hours later. Seriously, there's only so much daylight that I can stand, and that's anything less than five hours.
I decided to do some shopping for necessities (needless to say, I did not acquire anything that was on my list). I noticed I have way too many crazy colors in my wardrobe I've got to get rid of; yeah I don't know how they got there in the first place. It's not that I mind color, but, well... I do. It's all OUT THERE, and hiding is much more different (wearing black, you can just stand in shady corners, but when wearing colors, you actually have to stand behind columns and large objects and stuff. And yes, I DO HIDE BEHIND LARGE OBJECTS WHEN IN PUBLIC. Ask Carmen, she lost me a couple of times.) Also, it requires way too much effort to match clothes. Hence, I go existentialist.
Having previously tried it on on four different occasions, I gave in and got myself this dress. It's a black knit thing, and kind of tight, but with very nice long sleeves. Also, a black pleated skirt, because you can never have enough of those. And black/white burlington knee-highs, because I just love showing off my pasty, scarred kneecaps. Furthermore, I still love the Betsey Johnson Fall 2007 show, and I'm determined to make just that my dress code for this year (just like, black/white only. maybe some purple. I like purple). They're not even particularly great outfits, I mean there's much better this season (idea-wise, pretty-wise), BUT, just the idea/theme of it. It's something I can work, and it looks fun, and just great to wear. Mind, there's a big different between those things. Only because I worship Gareth Pugh and Alexander McQueen, doesn't mean I'd try to dress whatever particular fashion they create and promote that season. And particularly Gareth Pugh, uhm... not reeeally.

Talking of fashion, and seeing as fashion week just started... I'm not really impressed so far. That's partly because NY week doesn't have as many designers I care for, anyway (here's looking forwards to Paris!), but sometimes I just wonder how those people make their money? I mean, if those outfits were at least hideous, so I'd have something to be outraged about. But 90% are just blatantly, in-your-face, boring. So far I liked Marchesa (very romantic and cute), and L.A.M.B., although latter is a ginormous rip-off of 2007's collections. It's crazy, even I noticed it at first glance! And I'm nowhere near runway-savvy. Still, it's all almost ridiculously wearable, and fairly cute. Sort of like H&M only fifty times more expensive. Which makes it retarded.


After that I went over to my mom's place and we made Pumpkin Pie. It came out really delicious, but I'm biased because I'm obsessed with pumpkins. It's my favorite vegetable (the interwebz says it's a fruit! whatever!! tastes like vegetable to me. lol.)!! Which is lucky, because I seem to be the only person within three hundred miles radius to like it at all. But seriously, pumpkin soup, pie, stew, juice, whatever <3. Even the color is awesome!! I love fall.
Then I had some redwine, did some sketching, and went home to do more sketching. I might watch "Nil by Mouth" which I recently acquired on DVD, but I'm still kind of scared. My brain has gone squishy from light entertainment, I fear it may explode if confronted with overly ambitious information/emotion/etc.

FINALLY, I got carded AGAIN today, buying cigarettes. HAHA.

Ah, the weather outside is dreadful, silly beautiful rainy November broth at its best. Probably torture to be outside right now, but all the more pleasant at home. I'm having a blast, watching the rain, listening to Charlie Parker, sketching, doing some illustrator stuff.. It's the perfect afternoon!

I started playing around with pastels (I've had them for quite some time now, but haven't used them at all really.. because I FAIL AT THEM.), and thought how I lacked some self-portraits.
Here's a quick sketch I did a little while ago. I'm definitely going to sit down tomorrow (when the light is good enough to draw) and do this for real, because, while it's not the most interesting composition, just glancing at it makes me laugh SO MUCH. I mean, this is my NORMAL FACIAL EXPRESSION ok. NO WONDER people call me grandma all the time. I'm 21 and already I got the disapproving look down, I look like the crazy cat lady across the street. The slight raised-eyebrow, the frown, and the pursed lips, the badly-done makeup, it's all right there. Like, "ARRR I HATE THEM OBNOXIOUS NOISY CHILDREN playing all the time!!"

( coooontinue... )

Hello!! Ahhh, nothing ever happens to write about, but anytime it does, I still can't get myself to do the typing.
So, I just arrived at home after almost two weeks at my friend Carmen's place in Leipzig, so I was kind of unavailable. But those who I owe emails to -here's looking at you, kid - I'm working on it, just been preoccupied a little, but I haven't forgotten!
Anyway, it was awesome! Of course - and with the combined talent force of Carmen and her man (who, besides being great fun, repeatedly proves my taste in wine, music and movies BANAL. I am left destroyed in a squishy mass of triviality!!) we took fantastic pictures of some of the clothes I recently made. I owe them all sorts of stabbing-myself-ritually now. Again.

Carmen and I also tried to catch up on not having had decent movie marathons for two years. We went through a whole lot of them, though I managed to fall asleep while watching any of the deep and challenging stuff.
Our choices were a jolly mix of re-watching, "I've always wanted to see this!", "my (insert relation here) told me to see this!" and mutual nostalgia.

Also, you may notice, how I VERY SUBTLY tried to foist as much Gary Oldman on her as possible. Muahahha. Bow to the queen of subtlety. Anyway, fanwank NOW.

( This is what we saw (I try to recap, then I tire, then I just stop and leave.) )

Dear, that was a long post. I might just go to bed now. And read some. And possibly watch the Kill Bill movies.
Cheers!

This veterinarian was giving those two giant turtles vaccination, and while one was lying on its back getting the shot (or whatever), the other one was all like TAT OMG MUST RUN!!! moving away frantically (haha) until it walked into a wall, and the vet came to pick it up .. sad, but SO FUNNY. Like this huge rock being all like "oh when I move quickly maybe they don't notice I'm missing" muahahhaa. I love animal shows.

So I'm watching this TV Series called "Numb3rs". Despite the totally 133t title, it's not so bad if you're into crime/drama style shows. It revolves around two brothers, one is a cop/agent, the other one a sort of math wiz, and they solve cases together, using totally awesome math skillz and lame miami vice dynamics.
Not to say it's not entertaining, but one thing I find absolutely ridiculous, is displaying actions like thinking, calculating etc .. all things that are not as graphic, obvious and generally well set to be shown on screen - with fancy animations. Think, any "hacker" tv/movie. Matrix pulled it off pretty well, those flashy green inverted kana were stylish and fulfilled their purpose well.
But that's a one-time thing. Do that five times an episode (45 minutes), and it gets old really quick.
So - math dude has to figure out some problem. Not exciting to film but essential to the plot - so, wheeeee! Zoom straight on a paper with lots of *scary*NUmb3rz, apply random photoshop effects, have lots of signs and random letters circle around the screen in flashy colors. Not to spoil the fun here, but when doing math, you do NOT see pi and a bunch of minuses rotate in your head, shiny and pretty in a wave of intense pinks and blues. Or maybe that's a special math-o-sphere I haven't reached, either way, tvpeopleplzstop.
MUST STOP.

sometimes I wonder
why do people
on lj and myspace and whatnot
write like this
because
maybe I'm oldschool
maybe it's just me
but I just don't get it
too messy for iambic pentameter
and too lame for slam poetry
just makes you sound like a retard
seriously.

Ok just before I was studying my chinese characters for the day, put down the sheet to look something up and accidentally picked it up so that the characters were upside down ... and it was like GRAARR ARRRRGH WAHHHHHH!!!!! It was maybe the scariest thing I have EVER experienced!!!! Ok this might just be me hallucinating but all of sudden it seemed like all the neat, charming, tidy little characters had turned into BEASTS OF CHAOS bending their extremities and strokes at the most gruesome angles with no meaning attached whatsoever. They started to leave the little boxes they were placed in and crawled together to form a multitude of little messes just to SCARE ME.

Ah. Never try to read chinese characters upside down. It might seriously damage your sanity.

Finally I got my hands on the new Killers CD and I've been listening to it very, very often recently and I love it to death. Just like the previous album it just doesn't get - old no matter how many times you play it. And yet it's completely different in style from the old one. While the dayview was very electro/retro/dance-ish (etc.etc.) this one is just... epic. Epic rock. The kind of soundtrack that will turn the smallest trifels into life-changing events. Makes you feel like the sun is rising for the first time in a thousand years when it was just yesterday that you watched the same procedure with regret. (dun dun) The kind of music that makes cleaning the toilet feel like you're wiping manhood clean from all sin.
Just very theatrical, it's fantastic.

And damn, they're rocking those mustaches.